JAN 16TH~

TODAY...hmm so what shall i say about today! id say i have had an okay day! Wasn't what i expected but was rather easy! last night was ruff..i got about 3 hours of sleep! i woke up randomly with 3 of my crazy spaz attacks. I hate it ya know. its hard being here instead of chillin with my friends. But they say its gonna be worth it. I have been on new meds. I am not sure if its the meds or my tiredness but i am sooo mellow and sleepy. That sleeplessness kinda shifted my day P.T. started at 10 so i didn't reach my goal yet! But i am trying soooo hard!! i just cant give up. as much as in fact there are times when i feel s though the pain is so hard that i just want to stop trying!! But its days like these when i only had 3 spazums that make me think there is progress. It hard i just didn't know it would be so hard. sometimes its just meirly the wheelchair that gets to me. I know i have to get used to it.. I WANT TO GET BETTER! i am willing to work hard! but sometimes at p.t. its REALLY REALLY HARD! i guess it will make me stronger right? well i do know i have a great team and they are gonna try everything till it works! I just don't want anyone to give up on me. I need people to tell me we are not giving up. I see progress but there is so much more i need to overcome. although i don't love the hospital. THIS PLACE IS TAKING SUCH GOOD CARE OF ME!! tomorrow is a new day and i hope it will be as good as today!see like right now..its like a constant burning in my foot. But i am ignoring it. I am trying to tell the difference between burning and SPAZUMS. its like i said its like a shock. it starts somewhere then ends somewhere its just with my leg it hasn't stooped. I am hoping only a couple more weeks! i am almost all caught up in school and my friends are visiting frequently! but the best part is i get to see my little brothers tomorrow!! i miss them. But ya know they got scared when i had such excruciating spazums. i want to go home with out those. now i know i wont be painless but hopefully i wont be in this much Pain! i want to be this and i know i will, but Patience is a virtue. And i have to try harder everyday. My goal for tomorrow is to practice my breathing! its just so hard when everyone is telling you to breath and its sooo hard to! i want to but its hard i am trying...tomorrow...ILL TRY HARDER!! rsd isn't getting to me!!
MORGAN!